He’s
standing just two steps away from me.
There’s
snow all around. Fresh, glittering, virgin white. The snow never treaded upon.
A huge, vast field of snow. There’s nothing but snow. No houses, no trees. No
horizon. Just snow and sky.
And Ritchey
standing two steps away from me.
So close he
could reach out and touch me. But he doesn’t. He’s just standing there in his
black coat, looking at me a little wistfully. I want to touch him. I want to
hug him. Want to feel him under my fingers and make sure he’s really there,
he’s alive, he’s himself.
But I’m
afraid.
Silence.
Dead silence, mute silence, as if there’s cotton in my ears.
Then he
speaks up.
“You’re
hiding from me, Dean.”
I shake my
head, confused. I can’t understand what he’s talking about.
“No,
Ritchey. No, I…”
“Why are
you hiding from me? I’ve been looking… I came to look for you, but you weren’t
there.”
“Ritchey…”
“You’re
running from me, aren’t you, Dean?” There’s a weak smile on his lips. “You’re
all grown up now. You don’t need me any more.”
“I do!” I
shout at him, desperate. Still too afraid to touch him. “I need you! I’ve
always needed you!”
“You’re
hiding,” he repeats. “I can’t even see you. Why are you doing this to me, Dean?
I love you.”
It hurts so
much. I step forward. Ritchey doesn’t move. I take another step and put my hand
on his shoulder. “Ritchey?” I look up to meet his eyes.
And
suddenly his eyes are so cold. Suddenly, there are two ice tunnels where his
eyes used to be. Huge pits, iced over, emanating deadening, murderous cold.
“I’ve been
waiting for you, Dean,” the voice says, and it has Ritchey’s timbre and
Ritchey’s intonations, but it’s not Ritchey’s. Ritchey never had a voice that
could freeze you in your step. “I’ve been waiting for so long.”
His hands
grab me by the shoulders, and they are icy.
“Welcome
home.”
I scream.
And the
earth trembles, and thunder rumbles over the snow field.
And I wake
up.
Sit up
straight, sweating, gasping for air. And before I even realize I’m not asleep
anymore, there’s yet another rumble in the distance. A vibration runs through
the walls.
Then
everything is quiet again.
I wipe my
forehead on the linen. The sweat is cold. It’s chilly in the room, but I don’t
do anything, don’t try to cover up, I just sit there, reliving the dream again
and again. The only dream I’ve had of Ritchey that I remember. The dream where
he is my enemy.
I’m so
shaken, I don’t even understand at once that there’s too much light in the
room.
The nights
haven’t been black for a while. Most of the time, they are dark dirty gray,
white snow lacing through it like whitewash poured into a puddle of mud. At
times, in July, they are almost white – dirty white, the sky a ghostly shade of
dead blue.
But they’ve
never yet been tinted with reddish gold.
I get up
and walk over to the window. The night is clear, and far away, over the road,
over the snow, over the distant line of the horizon, I see shimmering reddish
glow.
Something
is burning. Something big. There, behind the woods.
Where the
City is.
---------------------------------
Jake isn’t
in the Townhall, and I can’t even seem to find Lena. I don’t like it. I need to
talk to Jake. And I’ve brought that damn cuckoo clock. He can have it. I can’t
even look at it any more.
But he’s
not there.
There are a
lot of people there, and everyone is fussing, running around, like it always
happens when there’s no-one to coordinate this mess. The whole Townhall reminds
me of a huge beheaded chicken.
Finally I
pull some girl aside – I think her name is Jean – and manage to keep her in one
place long enough to ask her a couple of questions.
“Jake isn’t
here! Of course he wouldn’t be here! Not after what happened to Lily!”
Say what?
“What
happened to Lily?”
She looks
at me and blinks. Then she finally recognizes me. It takes her yet another
second to process the information and understand that I really could have
missed the latest news in my asshole of the Universe, whole four miles away
from the Town.
“You
haven’t heard, have you? She went off on the very last night of the storm. Just
walked out the door. It was already calming down, maybe she thought it was
over, you know them kids…”
My heart
skips a beat or two.
“She… is
dead?”
That’s a
senseless question, she can’t but be. Is it why they called Theo yesterday’s
morning? His last job in town. They came back from the search raid at about
three, Lena told me. A really fast raid. So they found her? Oh dear God. Lily,
Jake’s pride and joy. Her parents, Jake’s daughter Ann and her husband Nat,
died in the third year of snow. Some punks in the City stopped their car and
threw them out of it. It was winter, and they didn’t make it home. That was
when Jake decided he wanted to get away from the City. So that Lily could have
a better place to live at. Lily’s only six… Jake’s going to go insane. He’s
going to just kill himself. Because he wasn’t there when she opened the door
and walked out…
“Of course
not!”
Not… not?
Right, Lena
was giggling when talking to me…
“How come?”
“The SP’s
brought her in alive. She’s sick, down with a really bad cold, but she’ll be
okay. Their main man said so.”
I let the
girl go, and she vanished at once, diving back into the mad rat-race along the
Townhall corridors. I think it over, then go down to my car and drive off,
heading for Jake’s house. I don’t know if he’s in the condition to listen to me
now. But it can’t wait.
The glow
went down in the morning, but there still was smoke. It was rising over the
deadwood forest and probably the only reason we couldn’t smell it yet was that
the wind was blowing north. Away from us. I have my guesses about what
happened, but I have to talk to Jake.
Theo’s
already gone, so I’m keeping all the promises, ain’t I?
There’s too
many people in Jake’s house, too. Lena, who opens the door and lets me in;
Sally Hutchison in the kitchen, obviously busy cooking; Holly and her husband
in the living-room, they’re doing something, too, but I can’t see what. Judging
by all the footwear I’ve seen in the hall, there must be others. Theo was right
about one thing – the Town is alive. Unlike the City, if something bad happens
to someone here, people rush over to help.
If I were a
little more cynical, I’d call it an atavism. Like looking at the fire. But I
won’t.
Lena nods
when I ask if I can go in to see Jake and Lily.
“Doc
Thompson is in there, too,” she says, “and he told us not to make much noise…
but you, Dean, you’ve never been a noisy guy.”
They’re
there, in Lily’s room, all three of them. Lily’s in bed, Jake is sitting beside
here in an old armchair, and Doc Thompson is over at the table, busy with the
meds. It’s him who notices me.
“Hi, Dean,”
he says. “I’d offer a hand, but mine should stay sterile for a while.” He’s
tall, gangly, seemingly consisting of angles alone. Add a pair of spectacles to
his shaggy grey hair, and you have the perfect man for the Mad Doctor role in
some third-rate movie. But he doesn’t wear spectacles – his sight is, probably,
better than mine. And he’s perfectly sane. He’s a very good doctor.
Jake looks
up. He’s tired so much he looks almost dead, but he’s obviously happy. Lily is
pale, breathing fast and shallow and looks very thin, but I’m willing to bet
that after visions of her dead in the snow – I bet he spent most of yesterday’s
morning having them – after those visions, this sight is definitely delightful.
“Hello,
Dean,” he says. “What are you doing here? Something is wrong?”
And all of
a sudden, I can’t force myself to talk of Theo, and his war theories, and fire
over the forest. All of a sudden, it all seems so… unimportant.
I swallow
hard. And tell him, “I brought a clock for Lily. You know, the cuckoo clock.
She’s been saying she wants one.”
His stare
drops to the bag in my hand. Then crawls up again to meet my eyes.
“You know,
Dean,” he says, “I’ve always known you’re not really an asshole. But it’s great
to finally see you admit it.”
I can’t
speak. And he stands up. Lily opens her eyes, looking from her granddad to me
and back. Her eyes are red. Maybe she has been crying. Or maybe it’s because
she spent so much time out there, in the cold wind. The wind makes your eyes
water; the cold freezes tears right where they come out. Not a good
combination.
“Dean’s
brought you a present, Lily,” Jake says. “I’ll go see how your eggnog is
doing.” He goes out of the room. Eggnog. I bet Roy’s wife didn’t say one word
about the money. And if Jake did – and he probably did – she must’ve shut him
up.
Everyone
loves Jake. I guess even I do. I’ve just never thought of it.
I sit down
into his armchair. Lily smiles at me.
“Hi, Dean.
Will you tell me I’m foolish? Because I went away, you know? Everyone does.”
“No,” I
say. “No good telling someone something she already knows.”
She makes a
grimace, then laughs. The laughter is weak. I really hope they all are right
and she makes it. She looks really sick.
“I have
something for you.”
Her eyes
grow wide when I take the clock out of the bag.
“Does it
have the birdie?”
“Yes.”
“And he
sings?”
“Let’s
see.”
I get up
and take her old clock off the wall. She watches me intensely, as I put the new
one there.
“It’s
ticking! So loudly!”
“It’s
because it’s big. Now look here. It’s just half past eleven. But I’ll make this
clock show twelve sharp. To fool the cuckoo. Because he only gets out when he
thinks the hour is done.”
“It’s a
tame trained cuckoo?”
“Oh, you
could say so.”
I set the
clock to one minute to twelve and stand back.
“Now wait.”
Neither me,
nor Lily, nor Doc Thompson – whose eyes are laughing – say a word during this
whole minute. The pendulum swings with the loud, dignified tick… tock… tick… tock… And then, as the minute hand finally joins
the clock hand on the figure of twelve, the little door in the wooden case
opens and the small red and black wooden bird jumps out with it’s mouth open.
Bomm, it says. Or the clock does, but it sure looks
like this from the distance. The spring screw is new, and before each bomm the bird retreats back into the
door completely and then jumps out again. Lily gives a small scream of delight
and starts clapping her hands. I watch the result of my job pensively. Honest
to God, I’ve never once seen a cuckoo. I don’t know what their real coloration
is. I must have been having my very own thoughts when choosing the colors for
re-painting this thing.
“Dean, he’s
wonderful! And he does it every hour?”
“Yes,” I
set the clock back to the correct time. “In half an hour, you’ll see him
again.”
“Alright,”
Doc says with a smile. “Since you’re such good friends now, can I ask you to
stay with Lily a minute, Dean? I told Sally to do something for me, but she
must have forgotten all about it.”
He doesn’t
sound surprised. Knowing Sally, I’m not surprised either.
“Okay.”
There. I
sometimes tell people there are just a few jobs I haven’t gone though in my
life. Now I’ll have to cross ‘babysitter’ off the list.
Lily
grimaces again, when the door behind Doc closes.
“They don’t
live me alone for a second,” she complains. “Do they think I’m going to run
away again? I’m not that foolish!”
“You scared
your grandpa a lot.” I sigh. They probably don’t leave her alone because they
think she might get worse any minute, but hell, if this has an unexpected
pedagogical side-effect, I’m not going to dispel it.
Now she
looks guilty. “I know. But I’m not foolish. I didn’t do it just… just because,
okay? I thought I saw Beast.”
I try not
to look away. Beast was their cat. With a nicely-fitting name, too. It really
was a beast, big and beautiful, with a shaggy gray hide, strong legs and a torn
ear. A fighter. Jake found him cold after a storm one morning. He didn’t
believe Beast just froze to death, cats rarely do that. He thought that the cat
caught the wrong rat – a lot of people around the Town try to get rid of them
with rat poison, and Beast was a hunter type. He must have eaten a poisoned rat
and gotten too weak to make it into the house in time. Jake told Lily that
Beast got lost. It’d be hell, trying to explain it all to her. So she still
thinks he’s alive.
“I thought
I saw Beast,” she says sadly. “So I put on my coat and went out to look for
him. It wasn’t as windy as it had been all week, you know? I really saw a cat
there, even if it wasn’t Beast, and I just went after it, and then I suddenly
wasn’t in the Town anymore – weird, isn’t it?”
“It is.
Cats are weird. Lily, next time before you do it, think of this: if Beast came
back, he wouldn’t walk off again. He’d try to get in. And if it’s someone
else’s cat, then it’s someone else’s business to follow it out of town.”
“I know.”
“That’s
good.”
“But I’m
not sorry. I told Grandpa that I’m sorry, but I’m not. Because I saw mom and
dad there.”
I wince.
And take a better look at her. She doesn’t look as if she were fantasizing.
She’s pensive, a bit sad and strangely serene.
“Lily. It
can’t be.”
“They told
me that.” She purses her lips. “They told me that mom and dad were dead, and I
know it. And Sally said that I couldn’t really remember them. She thinks I
didn’t hear her, but I did. You know what, Dean, I do remember them!”
I don’t
answer, and, exasperated, she points to a picture on the wall. A wedding
picture.
“Maybe I
don’t remember seeing them when I was a little baby, but I know what they look
like!”
“I believe
you,” I say. It doesn’t matter if I do, but she shouldn’t get that nervous. Not
when she’s so weak.
She catches
her breath and is suddenly all serene again.
“It’s good.
Because I really saw them. There, after Beast… that cat, after that cat ran
away from me. There, in the snow. I was getting cold, and I was crying. And
then I heard them laughing.”
It’s as if
someone shoots me with a shocker. A bolt of electricity going through my whole
body.
“What
happened then?”
She’s
obviously happy that someone finally wants to listen to her. “I walked towards
them! I thought that people who were laughing would take me home if I asked
them.” She pauses. “They were Mom and Dad. I swear.”
“I believe
you.” And this time I really do. And it’s not good at all.
“But they
were strange.” She frowns. “They called me, and I ran towards them, but I
stumbled and fell. Don’t laugh. I’m not awkward.”
“I’m not
laughing. I often stumble in the snow myself.”
“Because Al
– you know, Al Comfrey, he says that I fall all the time because I’m a girl. He
says girls are not as strong as boys.” She sighs. “He’s a fool, that Al. I fell
because I was hurrying. I wanted to see them. And when I fell, they came over
and bent to me, and it was them alright. Only they looked a little older, and
Mom had short hair.”
I feel
goosebumps breaking out all over my skin. In the wedding photo, Ann has long
hair, falling down on her shoulders in shiny locks from under the white hat
she’s wearing. Four years after the wedding, shortly before she died, she had
it cut just below her ears. She had it soft and curly, it was always going wild
when she took off her fur cap and Nat would laughingly call her ‘cloudhead’.
Lily has no
way of remembering that.
“They said
they’d take me home. And it felt so good. Good, but very, very cold. And I
couldn’t see all of their faces. It’s weird, because I recognized them, and I
knew it was them, but it wasn’t quite day yet, because the sun was only going
to go up. And it was snowing. I wanted to see them better, and I took out my
flashlight.”
“You had a
flashlight?”
“I told you
I wasn’t stupid! How would I find Beast outside at night if I didn’t have the
flashlight? Of course I took it with me!”
“What did
you do then?”
She smiles.
She’s pleased to see me so interested. Because I’m so very interested indeed.
I’m desperate to hear the end of it.
“I turned
it on. The light. You know, it’s really strong, my flashlight. Grandpa bought
it in the City last year, because lights kept going out. Because of the storms.
So I turned it on and looked at them. And you know… they jumped back from me.
They were this close to me, their faces…” She shows how close, raising her hand
about ten inches above her face. “… and when I shone my flashlight at them,
they jumped away. But Dean… I don’t want to tell anyone, because they’ll think
I don’t love my mom and dad, and I do! But they… you won’t tell I talked bad of
them?”
“No. I
won’t tell.”
“They had
bad eyes,” she says, looking rather confused. “Just before they jumped back, I
saw them. And they had really, really bad eyes. Strange eyes. They were… not
okay.”
“Ice,” I
say before I can stop myself. “They had ice for eyes.”
“Yes.” And
she stares at me, and her own eyes get all wide again. “How do you know?”
I give her
the most banal explanation you could give to a kid.
“I don’t
know… I read about something like this in some book.”
To my
surprise, she relaxes. If anything, she looks relieved.
“Maybe it
was a book about dead people,” she says. “I don’t know. I can’t read yet. But
you see, Dean, I was afraid. When I saw their eyes I suddenly thought they
didn’t love me at all. Thought badly of them. Thought they were going to do
something bad to me. I thought badly about my mom and dad.”
“It’s
okay,” I say and my voice is croaky.
“I know.”
She nods. “Because… I think I understand now. They couldn’t love me, because
they were dead, right? Dead people, they can’t love those who are alive, right?
So maybe they just wanted me to die. So they could love me.”
Eerie.
Almost unbearably eerie – to sit here and listen a six-year-old girl tell me
that in a serene soft voice.
“I’m not
mad at them. It’s just because I’m alive and they are dead, right? It’s not
their fault.”
“Right,” I
manage.
“But then,
I was afraid, and I screamed, and I left my flashlight on, and I was running
around screaming, because I thought they might jump me from behind. So I kept
turning around, and I never turned my flashlight off.”
I look at
her, and what I’m thinking is that she was right about herself earlier. She’s
not a fool. She’s not foolish at all. She isn’t just smart for her age – she’s
a genius.
“I think I
saw them once or twice, but I shone my flashlight that way, and they weren’t
there. And then it was day, and it stopped snowing. And it was sunny. But I
didn’t know where I was, because there was snow all around me. And I was very
cold and I really, really wanted to sleep, but I knew I mustn’t. Grandpa says
that if you fall asleep in the snow, you’ll never wake up. So I just walked
some more. I thought that maybe I’ll get back to the Town. I was very-very
tired when I saw a car.”
“Black and
red.”
“Yes.” She
suddenly grins. “Like the birdie in my clock! And I started shouting, and then
people came for me, but I don’t remember anything else, because I think I
finally fell asleep. And when I woke up I was sick. Ugh.”
“You know,
little ladies tend to get sick when they run around in the snow for too long,”
Doc says, opening the door. “And then they have to suffer injections. It’s time
for the shot, Lily.”
“Oh no,”
she shuts her eyes tight. “I’m sleeping. I heard you tell Grandpa you can’t
give me a shot when I’m sleeping. Because I can jerk and break a needle. And
I’m sleeping, so go away and shoot someone else.”
“Good ear
and sly mind,” says Doc with a smile. “Well, we’ll have to risk it.”
“See you,
Lily,” I say hastily and head for the door. “Get well soon!”
There’s a
heavy sigh behind my back. And just as I close the door, there comes a loud
“Ouch!” Poor kiddo. Jake is already here. He tells me, “Wait for me in the
living-room, won’t you, Dean?” and marches in with eggnog at the ready.
I go to the
living-room and talk to Holly and Randy for a while, trying to get Lily’s face,
sad and serene, out of my mind. Then Doc Thompson joins us, plopping into a
chair and throwing his head back.
“Do you
know if I could get a cup of tea?” he asks rather hopelessly.
“I’ll go
make it,” Holly says. “Sally is cooking soup. Best not distract her if we don’t
want extra stuff in it.”
“Is she
really okay?” I ask Doc. “I mean Lily. She doesn’t look well to me.”
“You know,”
he drawls, his eyes closed, “she could be in real trouble. When they brought
her in I thought that maybe it would have been better if they hadn’t found her.
She was delirious. And she was burning. Fever, you know. Really bad.
Inflammation. I don’t have enough equipment and it’s too early to say for sure,
but I suspect at least one-sided pneumonia. And we’re rather short of stuff. I
thought I wouldn’t be able to get her out of it.”
“But you
did?”
“The SP’s,”
he says. “The SP’s, bless them. Their main man left his whole medical set to
us. You know, they have them. Anti-inflammatory shots. And others. His was
almost untouched. And he didn’t take anything for it. Just shoved it into my
hands and left.”
Theo. Yeah,
maybe he had bad flashbacks when Doc said the little girl had pneumonia.
Was born a
do-gooder, will die a do-gooder.
I hope he
burns in hell anyway.
“I’m still
not saying anything certain, but as it is now, she has ninety-eight chances out
of hundred to make it. And I’m going to see to it that she does. I was afraid
she had damaged her head, too, because she apparently had hallucinations… but
her head seems okay. Maybe it was just hunger and sleep deprivation. She is a
very strong child, resisting the sleep for as long as she did. I think she’ll
be okay.”
Holly
brings the tea, and almost immediately Jake calls him into the room. Doc goes
there, still sipping from his cup. And in a minute Jake walks into the
living-room.
“Come,
Dean,” he says. “Let’s go to my study.”
And once we
get there, he turns to me and says, “I like you. I really, really like you, but
I know you, too. You wouldn’t have come just to give Lily her clock. Which was
really nice of you, but it wasn’t what brought you here. Now, what was it? Tell
me.”
Yes, he’s
tired. Exhausted. And has a lot of worries on his mind. But he’s the Alderman.
The one who is responsible for the well-being of his Town and its people. Of
course he wants to know at once if something is wrong.
And so I
tell him.
-------------------------
“If you’re
not ready in five minutes, we might as well wait for tomorrow.”
“Don’t play
a smartass, Dean!”
Now I’m a
smartass. I wonder if that’s up or down from the Asshole level. Then again, I
have more important things to worry about.
Like having
Larry for a companion. That’s a problem if I’ve ever seen one.
“Shut your
mouth and hurry up, Larry,” Jake says. His eyes are dark, shadowed with
concern. “Dean, what did I just tell you?”
“If there’s
a storm, don’t try to go on,” I repeat earnestly.
“I mean
it.”
“Sure.”
“Listen to
me.” Íe lowers his
voice. “I don’t doubt your monster can make it through to the City in an
average snowstorm. But Larry’s car won’t. Don’t leave him behind. You can be
cross at me all you want, but he is not going because he wants to. He is going
because we’re sending him. And if you leave him behind, he might never make it.”
I sigh.
“I won’t
leave him behind. Now you can leave me alone. Really.”
He is still
not sure of it, but he knows there’s just so much he can do when I’m in a bad
mood.
It was
probably the most exciting meeting of the Town Council ever. Not that anyone
was enjoying it. After I repeated my story for the fifth time, my head started
aching. And they were still arguing. The idea that Theo could be lying was
dismissed in the first half-hour. I’m not coy by nature. I told them how it had
come to us sharing secrets. Another hour was wasted on discussing the City
people’s plan and our own possibilities. To me, it was a waste of time. We
didn’t have many possibilities. We could submit to them. Or we could leave the
Town and go into hiding – this option was very unlikely. We didn’t have
anywhere to go. The least likely one was to fight. The very suggestion was
idiotic. The City would never start to bring their plan into effect unless they
had at least four loyal SP squads to back them up. And if they did, then we had
no chance.
However,
all of these things could wait.
The fires
over the forest couldn’t.
I told them
what I thought. There was a lot of noise while everyone who didn’t believe it
was possible tried their best to tell me so. Then, when Jake restored relative
order, they discussed it. And discussed it. And discussed it.
No-one had
heard the rumble or felt vibrations, but I wasn’t the only one who’d seen the
fires. Some said it could be the deadwood forest burning. I laughed the idea
off. Redwood, dead or not, isn’t prone to forest fires. Never was, even in
summer, its bark is too thick and there’s too much water in its wood. Now, when
there’s snow all over it, the very idea is indeed laughable. They finally
agreed to it. Finally admitted, that so far my idea was the only more or less
logical explanation.
I thought
the City guys had fucked up with their weapons.
They didn’t
know how to use them, Theo said. And if Reeds was their best bet, odds were
high they’d never really know it. Maybe they were trying to transport the
weapons somewhere. Maybe something went wrong.
Or maybe
they wanted to test them and something went right.
The Council
argued and argued and argued. And in the end, they came to one decision. There
wasn’t any way of knowing for sure other than going there. They wanted someone
to go and see how the things were. Try to find out as much as possible. Someone
whose car could make it along the road after the recent storm.
That didn’t
leave them much choice.
I was cool
with that. A little uneasy – I haven’t been to the City ever since Ritchey
died. But quite cool. I had expected them to do just that.
What I
hadn’t expected – and what I wasn’t cool with at all – was Larry Kibbler.
You need a companion, they said. It’s not because we don’t trust you, they said. It’s because it could be dangerous. What if
one of the cars gets stuck? What if one of you gets into trouble in the City?
One of you should be able to get back with the news. So that we could help the
other.
Yeah, like
it isn’t obvious whose car is going to get stuck.
Larry is
twenty-one, like me. And his car is the same modification of Landrover my own
babe is based on. That’s where the likeness ends. Because he’s useless.
Useless, with a capital U. I know they chose him because his car is second best
in town and because he won’t let anyone touch it. If they had to tow his car
back to the Town as many times as Ritchey had to in our very first year here –
back then it was Larry’s dad driving it, and all I can say is some things do
run in the family – maybe then they wouldn’t think as much of him.
Then again,
he’s the only one besides me who is of age and doesn’t have a family to
support.
We were
supposed to take off today, at midday. It’s half past three now, and we’re
still in Town. And the weathermen have warned us that after two days of clear
sky, the storm is very likely. Lovely, isn’t it?
By the time
we finally make it out of the Town, it’s four p.m. and I’m ready to tear
Larry’s head off with my very own hands. If we don’t make it to the wood before
the storm hits, it’s going to be really nasty.
My car goes
first. Theo thought it wasn’t good enough to go through the snow. He was wrong.
Ritchey did a lot to it, and yesterday I changed the wheels on it and dressed
them in snow chains. The snow has sank down a bit and is now almost solid. But
Larry’s Landrover would still have troubles, weren’t it following my wheel
track.
We both
have walkie-talkies in our cars. But my dislike must be more or less
reciprocated, because I drive in blissful silence for an hour before my
walkie-talkie, crackling, comes to life.
“You’re
speeding,” it tells me in Larry’s voice, grumpy and whiny at the same time.
“You’re fucking speeding. I can’t follow that fast.”
“I’m trying
to make up for the delay. Last time I checked, Landrovers didn’t have problems
with speed.”
We’re
crawling, what is he talking about?
“It takes
too much gasoline.”
Yeah, and
if I know you well enough, you’re burning twice as much heating up the car,
Larry-boy.
Gasoline.
The Town Council could only provide enough for us both to make it to the City.
So that we’d have to buy the fuel for the ride home right there. Now, I have
some in stock and I didn’t like the way it sounded. In its All-Terrain mode, my
car eats up a lot. So I’m using my own one, and I have some more in my trunk.
But I’ll die before I sponsor Larry’s. They gave it to him. There’s barely
enough for the ride there and back. But if he goes on wasting it on heating the
way he usually does, I’ll still have to tow his car back. Fucking wuss, that’s
what he is. I haven’t turned on the heating yet and I’m still alive.
“Maybe you
could put on your parka. And maybe then you could turn off the heating system.
And maybe – just maybe – then you could stop worrying about the gasoline.”
“Just slow
down, will you?” he growls. “Or I’m going right back!”
“Thanks!” I
say and speed up. Slightly. There’s not much I can do in the snow. But I hear
him curse before he breaks off the connection. I don’t know whether he stopped wasting
his gas, but he does go a bit faster.
We go along
the almost non-existent road in the middle of the snowfield. There’s a dark
line at the end of it – the grove of redwoods. The City is right behind it.
Right now, this line seems too far-off to me. Makes me think of mirages. Of
fata-morgana. I know why. It’s the snow that’s unnerving me. The snow field
that seems so vast right now, so huge… almost endless. I have to remind myself
that there is the Town behind me, that the redwoods are real, that they really
are there and in a couple of hours we’ll make it to them.
It’s
unexpectedly hard to do.
I flip on
the car radio, going through stations, but there’s only white noise everywhere.
The surf-and-sca guy from the city is off the air. It makes me wonder again.
What did they do in the City last night? How bad was it? What are we going to
see?
By the end
of the second hour the snow begins to fall. My walkie-talkie squeaks up again.
“Dean!
Goddamn it, don’t drive off!”
“Just shut
up, Larry.”
“Oh God.
Dean, my wipers are fucking up. I can’t see shit. Dean, please, don’t drive
off!”
He sounds
really scared. I look at my speedometer and find out with some surprise that I
have gone from twenty to thirty miles per hour in the last five minutes. Must
have been pressing the accelerator a little too hard all this time. I know why.
Snow made me nervous.
That’s
really a little too fast for poor Larry.
I take a
deep breath.
“Okay. You
don’t panic, Larry. Snow is white. My car is black. Even if half your windscreen
gets blocked, you’ll still see it. Just drive.”
I slow down
a bit and the walkie-talkie goes dead again.
I almost
manage to persuade myself we’ll make it to the wood in time when the storm
begins.
And the
storm is bad.
“Dean!”
Larry shrieks over the radio. “Dean, I can’t go on! This wind is throwing the
snow all over me!”
I look back
at him, and it’s true. The wind doesn’t just mess up the snowfall. It takes up
whole layers of old snow, together with pieces of hardened crust, and throws at
us. My windscreen is armored, but Larry is having hard time driving, because
blow after blow is rattling the glass. Another minute, and it will crack. Or
break. Shit, that’s just what I needed…
“Dean!”
“Larry,
take it easy. Get dressed and get over to my car. Faster.”
He doesn’t
even protest, and I was sure he would. In a couple of minutes he’s knocking on
my window. I open the door to let him in. He’s hardly spent a minute outside,
but he’s shivering and covered in snow. His red parka seems almost white under
it all.
“It’s
hell!” he stutters, his teeth clattering.
“So that’s
what they mean when they say the hell freezes over.” I sigh. “We’ll need to tag
your car to mine.”
“We can’t
go on in the storm,” he says, not looking at me. “That’s what old Jake said.”
“If we stay
here, we’ll get buried,” I explain patiently. “We have to get to the forest.
Then we can try to wait out the storm.
He nods. I
know I’ll have to do all the work myself. He won’t get out of the car unless I
put my gun to his head.
I wouldn’t
either. But someone just has to do all the dirty job.
I look back
at his car uncertainly. It’s a big fucker. My babe is strong. Strong new
wheels, and Ritchey gave it a new heart – a motor that could probably fit for
any tow-car. But here, in the snow and against the wind…
“Someone
will have to drive your jeep. I won’t drag it to the forest all by myself. I
won’t be able to.”
Larry
doesn’t reply. He sits still, staring in front of him. I sigh again.
“Okay.
You’ll drive the prime mover. I’ll tell you how. And don’t turn off the
walkie-talkie. Now give me your keys.”
He shoots
me a distrustful look.
“You… will
let me drive it?”
Yes,
because if I have to choose between leaving my baby at your mercy and staying
here in the open plain where the storm will bury us up in another half an hour,
I’ll have to pick the lesser evil.
I show him
how to do everything. Tell him how the towing is done – the idiot has always
been on the other end of it. Then I wrap myself in my parka a little bit
tighter and reach for the door.
“Dean…
thanks.”
“If you end
transmission just once, I swear I’ll kill you,” I tell him, get out of the car
and slam the door shut.
The wind
goes at me at once, trying its best to squash me against the car. “Fuck,” I
whisper under my breath. “Fuck-fuck-fucking-fuckety-fuck!” This is like a
mantra. As I keep swearing, I make myself part from the car and take step after
step towards the Landrover. I’ve done it before. And it’s not the worst storm
I’ve been through. So fuck that. I’ll do it.
The hardest
thing is to breath and keep your eyes open. Because the snow that the wind
keeps throwing in my face isn’t soft. It’s not wet. It’s fine and hard, as if I
were caught in an impossibly cold sandstorm. It’s stinging. I pull my hood as low over my face as I can, while my
hands are doing the same old business, fastening the cord first to my car than
to his. Larry, that shit-for-brains, hasn’t been keeping distance, but now it
saves me at least two minutes, because I only have to walk around my own car,
and there’s his ‘Rover, its muzzle almost kissing my jeep’s backside. When we
get to the City, I’ll have to keep him away from me. They clean the roads
there, shovel away the snow. And over the night the asphalt gets iced over.
He’ll keep bumping into me all the time if he doesn’t keep the fucking
distance…
… Has
something just moved to my left?
I freeze,
clutching the cord in my hands like a drowning man would clutch the saving
rope. I know if I look around there won’t be anything there. And not because
there wasn’t anything there in the first place.
But because
they move so incredibly fast.
The wind is
wailing in my ears. I slowly look around. And see a figure in the distance. To
the right from me.
It’s not
wearing white. It’s wearing something looking too much like a black coat.
I fish in
my pocket, grab Larry’s keys and try to open the door hurriedly. It’s not easy,
the keys are small, my fingers are getting numb from cold even in gloves and I
don’t see shit. And I feel presence. Feel it with my whole back. I want to
scream.
The key
slips into the keyhole and turns, and I’m in the car, and I slam the door with
rage that only fear could bring about.
He’s
closer, when I glance in the window. He’s, maybe, twenty yards away. I can see
his hair, dirty blond, blown off his face by the wind. His face I just don’t
want to see. I grab the walkie-talkie.
“Start
away,” I tell Larry, and I don’t care how my voice might sound. “Start away. Do
as I told you. Now. And don’t you dare fuck-up!”
Past the
storm, I hardly hear my own engine as I start the ‘Rover. For an awful second I
think it’s not going to work at all. Motor roars and coughs, the ‘Rover
shudders and trembles and shakes, but doesn’t make it even an inch forward. I
can’t believe it. He hasn’t changed the old suspension bracket? What will I
find out next? That his wheels are still wearing summer rubber?
And the
next moment, the cord tenses. There’s a pull… another pull… and the car begins
to move.
I close my
eyes for a second. I don’t really believe in God, I don’t know who to thank,
but the need to thank someone is almost overwhelming. Then I glance out the
window again.
Nothing.
Whoever was there is gone.
You’re running from me, aren’t you, Dean? Why
are you doing this to me?
I bite my
lip and press down the accelerator.
And even
though it seems an eternity to me, we make it to the wood in twenty minutes.
----------------
“I don’t
like this place.” Larry sighs. “I never liked this place. It creeps the shit
out of me.”
“Not in my
car, please.”
He stares
at me blankly, then gives a short laugh.
“Always
joking, huh? Who was it that sent the word around you were Mister Gloom? You’re
all laughs, Dean.”
No shit,
brother.
“Do you
happen to have some snack? I have some, but I left it in my car…”
I want to
tell him that if I made it to his car and back in the field, then he sure can
pull the same trick here, in the forest, where the trees, however creepy they
might be, keep some of the wind and the snow away. I want to tell him that it’s
so not my problem if he can’t.
Instead I
tell him, “There’s a bag on the back seat. If you can reach it, you can have
some.”
He beams at
me and starts squirming, obviously ready to crawl right over the back of the
seat. I groan and push the ‘unfold’ button. Larry gives a surprised “Ow!” as
his seat tilts back.
“Wow,
thanks!”
“Don’t tell
me you don’t have folding seats in your car.”
“Well, but
that’s in my car.”
Okay.
Whatever.
“Speaking
of my car, did you leave the heating off there?”
I guess it
was too much to hope he’d shut up at least while eating my supper.
“Of course
I did. You towed your car along for less than half an hour today, did you like
it? I don’t want to do it the whole way home.”
“My
windows. I won’t see anything in the morning.”
“Larry. You
ever heard of the cabin warming trick?”
No. He
hasn’t, I see it at once. The living and graphic disproof to the theory of
evolution, that’s what he is.
“You are
going to hear of it in the morning. Now forget about it and don’t talk with
your mouth full.”
He snickers
but doesn’t talk for a while, so it’s all good. Unfortunately, nothing good
lasts forever.
“A tough
guy, aren’t you, Dean?”
“Depends on
what you call tough. If you spend the night outdoors, I bet you’ll be much
tougher than me in the morning.”
“I wonder
who gave you your idea of funny.”
“I was born
with it.”
“No wonder
you never get any chicks.”
For whole
two seconds I actually wonder if I would be able to get me a woman in the Town
if I wanted to. That’s how bored I am. Finally, I decide that if I were really
desperate, I could talk Lena in because she’s curious. That would be a start.
“I leave
them to you. No brain, no luck, no skill… you have to get at least something,
otherwise it would have been unfair, wouldn’t it?”
“I don’t
know, Dean, what kind of person are you? There’s no-one here, just me and you,
no living soul around, and you don’t even want to chat. Are you even human?”
“No. I’m
your hallucination. You’re imagining me. Some of us hallucinations aren’t very
talkative.”
“Not
funny.”
“Well, I’m
not a comic hallucination.”
Larry
suddenly smiles.
“You know,
it’s better to have a snappy hallucination beside me than nothing at all. If I
were alone in this place, I’d go insane.”
Maybe he’s
right.
The place
is rather creepy if you’re not used to it. Our cars are parked into narrow gaps
between thick, darkened trunks. They were hard enough to find. All between the
old redwoods, there are young sprouts, maybe ten or fifteen feet high. They are
everywhere, growing in seemingly unnatural straight rows and impeccably
symmetrical ‘fairy rings’. Huge old trees going so far into the sky you think
you can’t see their tops. Young growth surrounding them, looking almost lacy in
comparison.
All of them
dead.
The redwood
forest wasn’t always that thick. In the last year of summer, as it grew
slightly colder through all twelve months, redwoods suddenly started
reproducing like crazy. Every fallen tree sprouted new trees seemingly in no
time, and they grew unusually fast, reaching up to thirty feet in their first
and last season of growing. That’s what Ritchey told me. Maybe the redwoods
sensed the death coming. They withstood the first winter, but the May frosts
killed them dead.
They stand
there, huge, blackened and covered in snow, and if you walk amongst them, it
feels as if you were in an old scary tale. Of the ‘enchanted forest’ kind. But
somehow you don’t believe in fairies at all.
Yes, Larry
is right, it’s not the nicest place for being alone.
“How long
do you think the storm is going to last?”
“I’d say,
till dawn. Somehow they almost always go away at dawn. Storms.”
Larry
sighs.
“And it’s
what… seven in the evening now? That’s a shitload of time.”
“There are
old papers in the back of the car. Read something. Or make origami.”
“Wha?..”
“Nevermind.”
Some more
silence. Larry looks back uncertainly, then turns away. Apparently, he isn’t
fond of reading. In fact, I wouldn’t bet my last dollar that he can read at
all. In a few minutes he speaks up again, picking up right where he left off.
“A lot of
time to kill. We might as well do something.”
Beg your
pardon?
I turn to
face him. He’s sitting there, right next to me, leaning his elbow against the
car seat casually, grinning widely. I’ve never seen a face more smug. And this
grin is downright lewd.
Hell. I
don’t believe it.
“Don’t tell
me you mean what I think you mean.”
“Can you
think of anything better to do?”
God, yes. I
could, like, sleep.
“I don’t
think so, Larry. All those girls of yours will kill me.”
“They don’t
need to know.”
Shit, he’s
serious, right? You gotta be kidding me…
“How are
you going to do it, anyway?” I ask, more for fun than really wanting to know.
“You’re going to undress? Here? Now? And what is it going to be like, us jammed
between the seat and the steering wheel?” That’s one position those Kamasutra
guys haven’t thought of.
“There are
ways. I’ll show you.”
What, is
that a trend in the Town now? Some kind of extreme sports? Whatever keeps the
kids happy…
“Actually,
you won’t. Don’t get overexcited.”
“Oh come
on, Dean.”
“I’m sorry,
Larry. You’re not my kind.”
It’s
priceless – seeing that unbelieving, genuinely offended expression on his face.
Oh, he’s such a stud, our Larry. A really good-looking young guy. Girls really
think the world of him, or so I’ve heard around Roy’s bar. Young girls, who
fall for strong arms, and muscled chest, and long legs, and big blue eyes, and
straight nose, and thick honey-blond hair, and such a dazzling white, toothy
grin. Older ones already begin to look at other things. That must be why he
prefers to fuck them in the car and not to take them home. I bet what they
could see there would be a real turn-off. There are nice bums and nasty bums,
and Larry is the second type.
He can’t
believe that he, His Mighty Sexiness, has just been turned down by a scrawny
freak like me.
“Cut that
shit, Dean. What’s up with you? Playing the shrinking violet?”
“Larry, I
don’t know if you can even imagine it, but there are people who don’t want to
fuck all the time. Also, there are people who don’t want to fuck you. I happen to be both kinds
combined.”
The
funniest thing is, I’m not even bullshitting him. He isn’t my kind. My men have
always been older. Theo is over thirty, and Ritchey was thirty-five when we
first met. He’d be forty now…
Larry grabs
me by the coat. Ooh. Action.
“Listen,
who are you fooling here?” And he’s really pissed now. For him, the poor Golden
Kid, it must be a matter of honor. Funny, I’d never have thought he swings this
way. “That old queer of yours was doing you for how many years… five? Six? And
now everyone in Town knows that this SP guy has been getting a piece of your
ass. And now you’re going to tell me…”
He’s
touching me without permission. And he’s talking bad of Ritchey. Just one of
these things would have been enough.
He lets go
of my coat and becomes very silent. All of a sudden. And keeps trying to squint
down.
“You want
to know what is under your chin, don’t you, Larry?”
He looks at
me. Big, frightened eyes.
“It’s what
you think it is, Larry. It’s a gun muzzle.”
He
swallows.
“Processed
that? Fine. Now try to get the following, too: if you as much as touch me
another time, I won’t even need it to end your useless life. Believe it or not.
But better believe. Better believe, Larry.”
“Okay,” he
croaks. “Dean, I… I didn’t really mean it.”
Oh, they
never mean it. They only mean it if you’re fifteen, unarmed and can’t fight
back. Then they mean it alright.
I push him
away and he shrinks back from me, almost pressing into the door.
“Get yourself
together,” I tell him, trying to sound as indifferent as I can. “You can also
get out and cool off a bit. I think that’ll help. And then I don’t want to even
hear you until tomorrow’s morning. I’m going to sleep. I strongly advise you to
do that same. And not to get silly ideas. I’m a light sleeper.”
“As if I
wanted it so badly,” he mutters, regaining his composure a little.
“Larry?”
“What?”
“I hear
you.”
It takes
him a minute to understand what I mean. Then he goes pale again.
“Good
night,” I tell him.
At least
ten hours of almost total immobility. I couldn’t think of a better punishment
for him if I tried to.
-----------------
“Shit.
These trees creep me out.”
“Then get
into your car so that we could get out of here.”
“Right.
Right. I just…”
Larry
breaks off and stomps to his car. Afraid even in daylight. I don’t relate.
Larry fears dead trees and dark shades… I fear the field. The field we’ve just
crossed, where there are no trees and no shades – only snow, snow and sky, and
white whirls… where there are no sounds heard above the wind. Where you can
scream, and there’ll be no echo…
But I have
to admit the forest does look a little more creepy than usual this morning. The
storm ended before the dawn, and then, suddenly, cold fog crept over from the
coast. Deadwood in fog – even I feel a little uneasy.
But at
least it’s not snowing.
Me and
Larry are on talking terms this morning. He knows full well that soon he’s
going to whine over the walkie-talkie again, begging me not to ‘drive off’, especially
in the mist. I know full well that if the recent Mega Storm broke any roadside
trees, I’ll need his help.
So we’re
both pretending yesterday’s evening never happened.
It’s quiet
in the wood. No wind. It’s half past eight in the morning when we take off
again, and the ride goes smoothly. There is less snow here, under the trees, so
even Larry’s poor ‘Rover is doing okay. My walkie-talkie is silent – I’m going
slowly enough for him to keep up, and we don’t have anything else to talk
about. I bet he’s started wasting his gas on heating again, but I’ve decided I
don’t care. Maybe he really can’t do without it. There’s a lot he can’t do. I
showed him how to clear off the windscreen earlier this morning. It’s an easy
trick: you just turn on the engine and roll down one window a bit, and then you
keep switching engine modes for some time. After a while, warm air starts
circulating around the car, and snow and frostwork melt off the glass as it
heats up. No big deal. But he looked at me as if I were doing magic.
We’re
lucky. Most of roadside redwoods are too old for any wind to even sway them, as
thick in the trunk as both our cars put together. A couple of times we do run
into broken trees blocking the road, but all of them are young sprouts, so we
just get out of the cars and drag them aside – it’s easy to do together.
It takes us
a little more than half an hour to get through the grove. And when we drive out
of the redwoods’ shade, we see the City.
For the
first time today, my walkie-talkie goes live.
“Dean… what
is this?”
I haven’t
heard a voice like this for a long time. A low, horror-stricken voice, fear,
awe and denial, almost total refusal to believe combined in it. But I
understand him. If I spoke up right now, I’d sound the same.
“Dean… what
the fuck is this?”
“I think
it’s the City,” I tell him. “What’s left of it. Let’s see.”
I speed up
a bit and go down the road. He curses and goes off air. I don’t have to go slow
anymore, the sky is clear, and the fog has lifted off, so the day is bright and
there’s no fear he’d lose sight of me. Visibility is perfect.
Maybe a
little better than I’d want it to be.
I slow down
and stop only when I reach what used to be City Gates – two new-growth redwoods
with a banner stretched between them.
That is,
there used to be a banner stretched between them.
When there
used to be two new-growth redwoods.
I get out
of the car and just stand there and stare. In a few seconds, Larry pulls up
nearby and joins me.
“What the
hell happened here?”
How did I
put it when I was telling Theo about Roanoke? The houses lay in ruins, everything was overgrown in grass, and there
was no-one left to find there.
The City is
lying in ruins, everything is covered in snow, and there’s no-one left to find
here.
As far as
the eye can see.
“Oh my
God,” Larry moans beside me. “Oh my dear God, I don’t believe it!”
It’s hard
to believe. There used to be houses. There used to be tall buildings and small
huts, and streets, and streetlamps, and trees, and cars, and garbage cans… and
people. Lots and lots of people, maybe not as much as cities used to have
before the snow, but much more than in the Town.
Now all
that is left there is a field of blackened, charred remains. Tree stumps.
Half-destroyed brick foundations. Twisted metal. Black ashes mixed with snow –
greasy, far too greasy to be left from wood. A field full of the most terrible
harvest a man has ever reaped. It’s spread out before us, stretching into the
distance, over to the horizon. A limitless, unbounded field of death.
I hear a
groan and turn to see Larry bump his back into his car and slide down to the
snow beside it.
“They are
all dead,” he says weakly. “They are all dead, and I don’t have the gas for my
way home, and where am I going to get it now? Oh my God, Dean, what happened
here?”
“Easy,” I
tell him, trying to calm myself down as much as him. “Easy. We’ll work it out.”
“What the
bloody hell happened here?” he wails.
“I don’t
know. Larry, get up. Get up before you freeze your ass off. Sit in the car and
wait for me, I’ll go look around a little. Maybe there’s something to find
here.”
He nods,
scrambles back to his feet and opens the door of his jeep.
I turn to
face the death field again. And then, slowly, bracing myself, I enter it.
It doesn’t
look any better when I see it close. It doesn’t look any different, either. A
small-scale model of the world after the Apocalypse. I walk on, and all I see
is ruins – no part of them rising higher than three feet above the ground. And
as I keep walking, a new, stomach-turning sensation creeps all over me.
What happened here, Larry asked me, and I told him, I don’t know. But it’s a lie. Because I know. I can feel it. As I look around, as I see what has been done to the City,
I begin to feel the nature of this force. The dynamics and mechanics of it. The
same way I feel the nature of the things that I fix. No-one ever told me how it
was done – I do everything I do because I feel that if you turn this screw… or
fix this joint… or add a spring here… I’ve always felt it, and I can feel it
now. And as the feeling gets stronger and stronger, I can almost see how it
happened.
There was a
blast… then the blast wave… and the heat wave… there was fire. Fire, but of
enormous, unimaginable temperature. It rolled around and brought down
everything in its way… yes, but how was it possible? Open fires can’t be that
hot. They can’t burn people to ashes in a single wave. And no fires could burn stone.
But here
they are, the results. I see them.
It’s cold,
it must be at least twenty degrees below zero, but I feel sweat breaking out
under my clothes.
What the
fuck were they working on here? What the fuck were they going to give to our
military if even a few experimental
samples are able to do this?
For the
first time in seven years I think that maybe the coming of the snow was not a
curse but a blessing.
The fire
was strong, fast, impossibly hot… and localized? It didn’t reach the deadwood
grove. By every logic, it should have… localized, and auto-extinguishing. It
didn’t spread, it retreated unto itself… what was the wave like? I look around.
Concentric… of course… But something
isn’t right. The spread. If it was concentric, where was its seat, its hotbed?
Where did this bomb go off? The lines I see in my mind’s eye don’t compute,
they don’t fit the theoretical picture…
… until I
realize one simple thing. There was more than one hotbed. There were several
bombs in several parts of the City and they detonated almost immediately… maybe
seconds apart… I don’t get it. How?..
And then it
hits me, and I suppress the urge to laugh out loud. I don’t feel quite sane.
The City Council guys are fighting among
themselves, Theo
told me. There’s a lot of things they are
fighting about.
Idiots.
Crazy, gone, motherfucking idiots.
Sick minds
think alike.
There’s
nothing for me here. Nothing for any of us. Only death, and I can smell it.
It’s here, lurking. Waiting. It’ll be here for a long time. We’ll have to find
some other place to buy stuff from. Maybe we should brave the Outwards Road
down south and talk to the mine people Theo talked about. Maybe there are other
Cities out there. This one is gone.
I turn to
leave.
And hear
the roar of the car speeding away.
I run back
through the snow, shallow, one-night snow mixed with dust and ashes. I make it
to my car in time to see Larry’s ‘Rover disappear between redwoods. For a
moment I just stand there, not understanding a thing. And then I see that my
trunk suddenly has a lot more room in it.
Gasoline
canisters. The fucker stole my fuel. I climb into the driver’s seat and check
the tank.
One fifth
left.
He took all
he could fit into his own, smaller one.
I grab the
walkie-talkie.
“Larry!
Larry, motherfucker, you’re dead, you hear me? You’re deader than fucking
dead!”
I don’t
expect him to answer, jabbing my keys in, but he responds at once.
“You’re
tough, Dean. You can make it. And I’ll die here if I don’t make it home
tonight. I’ll tell the guys to pick you up when I get home. I promise.” And
with that he ends transmission. I don’t try to talk to him again.
I slowly
unclench my fingers and take them off the key. No. If I speed after him now,
I’ll have to use the Supercharger mode – Speed and All-Terrain combined. Then
I’ll be out of gas in fifteen minutes. His car is lighter, and he’s going back
by our own tracks now. I won’t get him.
If I go in
normal mode, I might make it through the forest. That’ll make me a little
closer to the Town.
Not that it
matters. But it’s better than to sit here and wait. Even if Larry does tell
them the truth when he gets home, I doubt anyone will go and save me. They’ll
know they won’t be able to recharge. They’ll be afraid. They are no heroes.
They are even no Snow Patrol.
There won’t
be any more Snow Patrol around for a long time.